story: Me

illustration: Cepe

Contemplation Compilation #1

In my short-term exile I learned some things

One, never hope for anyone to care for you, no matter how you care about them.

two, we thought all we want is to ‘disappear’, but what we actually want is to be ‘found’.

three, pain is most painful when you pretend to smile and to look happy.

four, When you do something right, no one remembers. when you screw up, nobody forgets.

five, never make a permanent decision under temporary emotion.

six, too many people buy things they don’t need to impress people who don’t give a shit.

seven, we can’t read one’s mind like a book. and that goes vice versa. don’t expect anyone to understand the way you feel right now.

eight. we can’t please everyone. we can’t expect someone to understand a level eight conversation while he/she only capable to think on level five.

nine, every promise with “forever” or “never” is a lie. because in this universe, nothing lasts forever.

ten, alcohol (as so as milk and cheese) never solve your problem. get yourself together and work it out.

eleven, when you tell your problem to others, some are happy you had it, some are confuse, the rest are just don’t care.

twelve, the best thing of being alone is to be able to perceive more than give. thus, you gain much more.

My Playlist for the Month

i’ve been looking all over the internet for these songs. very few of them can still be found as records. i remember the first days after i declared myself the straight edge oath, these songs were the first to grasp my ear. well, not all is actually that old, some are new references or new songs from old bands. i’d really love to put this as .zip and upload it, but i know some really cruel people over the internet who will do whatever it takes to make me regret that. so i guess i’ll just put it here and hope it has good use for those who seek.

High Hopes – Gorilla Biscuits

Escape And Run – 7 Seconds

Break Down The Walls – Youth Of Today

Civilized Man – Shelter

Million Days – Dag Nasty

True Till Death – Chain Of Strenght

Straight On View – Unity

No Rules – Insted

Demand Independence – Better Than A Thousand

Straight Edge In Your Face – Ten Yard Fight

Shopping For A Crew – Good Clean Fun

Bust A Move – Diehard Youth

Promises Kept – Champion

Crooked Floors – Comeback Kid

You Wrote This Song For Me – Bane

Like Trumpets – With Honor

Guilty – Side By Side

Straight Edge Revenge – ProjectX

Big Mouth Strikes Again – Slapshot

Glue – SSD

New York Crew – Judge

Last Straw – Wide Awake

Open Up – D.Y.S

Force Of Change – Strife

Screamo Gotta Go – International Superheroes Of Hardcore

No Donnie, These Men Are Straight Edge – Casey Jones

What I’d Give – Battery

Take The Risk – In My Eyes

Save It For The Birds – Down To Nothing

All Aces – xLooking Forwardx

El Tiempo Es Ahora – Nueva Etica

Reflections – Trial

Straight Edge – Minor Threat