How are you, Dad?
I know you’re frowning right now, the way you did
I tried, Dad. I really do.
I dreamt about you once
You looked great
rough on the edges, the way you’ve always been
in a place I know you’d rather be
I wonder all the time, Dad
What would be if you were still around?
What would you say to me right now
What did I do wrong this time
I still have that yellow lego jeep you gave me
I smile every time i look at it
it’s dusty and i guess its missing some parts
i have never been good at keeping things
I still remember how you wake me in that early morning
to show me that orange helicopter you’ve built all night
I remember loving it so much
I don’t know where it went though
It was hard, after you left
we weren’t ready
I thought I was, but I was’t.
I’ll never will
You aren’t a good person, everyone knows that
and anyone who says otherwise does not know you like I do
but you are always pure at heart and that’s how I want to remember you
I love you Dad, and I know you loved me too
Are you with bro now?
do you guys see each other over there?
If you do tell him I say hi
I hope you both get along well, though
how many words did I speak to you, dad?
how many times did I offend you?
and that one time I didn’t say happy birthday to you but you said I did
I wish I could come back and hug you
You wanted to see me that one last day
I was there but I didn’t come
The thought of it was ‘the last one’ was so far off my head
I will resent that decision until the day I die
Once again, I love you
you made me who I am
you’re the only man that will ever have my eternal respect